Up Late ♡

I can't sleep. I'm 90% sure I'm pmsing too. I am just extremely irritable and tired. Like everything is pissing me off. Every. Little. Thing. Like just stop, don't bother me.

One thing irritating me is my keyboard. I let his son use my computer and the next day my keyboard is fucked and I don't know how to fix it. So it's literally a struggle to just type out these posts. Even if its just to vent. Many things are irritating me and I am just ready to go. I can't say it enough.

I started the job hunting process. Really any kind of job, part-time, full-time...seasonal..anything. I want to get my own car. I desperately need that freedom again. I used to drive to the beach when I got stressed out and it helped. I haven't been to the beach alone since June maybe??? It was my place to be alone when I needed it and I don't have that anymore.

Another thing too is just getting out of this apartment. To just not be home all the time, meet other people. Then you know, a pay check doesn't hurt. Long time goal is to get my own tiny studio apartment. i love my boyfriend but its hard living with him. Its just hard living with anyone for me to be honest. He pointed out that I was the problem, so it would be better if I just removed myself completely.

But one step at a time. Job, car, school, and then hopefully apartment.

This keyboard is annoying me so goodnight! I will likely still be up..just not typing lol.

#Diary